So it's been a week since I decided to 'start over'...

It's been a week of determination, pro-activeness, testing my willpower and a dash of failure. I started last Sunday due to my 5 year old daughter's homework. She had to 'cook'/assist in making a healthy meal to demonstrate what they have been learning about balanced diet. I made salmon and brown rice with steam veg, I really enjoyed it and remembered what it was like to eat a healthy meal - I loved it.


Fast forward to Thursday/Friday and failure set in. I joined the gym on Thursday though so can I use that to cancel out Thursday's failure? No? Oh. 


Saturday's diet was absolutely atrocious! It all started with going to the chemist to get my prescription, as I left the chemist, I noticed a cake shop........................... I guess I don't really need to say anymore.

So I'm starting my weight loss efforts once again...

I'm at my highest of 230lbs, this is ridiculous....

For the last three days, I've been weaning myself off my bad habits; I've been eating a lot healthier, I've cut out snacking and I've been drinking a lot more water/fluid. I will be visiting the gym tomorrow to see the facilities and also hopefully to join and next week I'll be seeing a weight management nurse at my GP's surgery.

As most perpetual re-starters know, every time is always "..this time I'm serious about it. I will do it this time..." - I've been saying that for the past 12 years (and I'm only 26! - granted I wasn't overweight then but I thought I was). This time I'm taking active steps in achieving a healthier body as I possibly can.

- Tre

Day 1 : July 2, 2012

So today I started my weight loss efforts again. It has been ok so far. I stayed within my 1200 calorie allowance but still had two Kinder Buenos :/.

I'm Starting Over Yet Again....

I'm at my highest of 230lbs, this is ridiculous. That's all I'm adding really - here's to a new start (again!).

Day 21: I have this cloud of sadness over me that I can't seem to shift.

After being on the depo-shot for three months, I've gained 1 stone (14 lbs). I'm not at my highest weight ever at 226lbs. I'm so sick of this.

Then I found out my ex might have a new girlfriend (and I've seen the girl) and she's thin it just makes me want to berate myself even more.

We've been separated now for almost 4 yrs and I thought I was well and truly over him but I don't know if this means I'm not or I just feel this way because deep down I feel as if no one wants me as I'm so fat.

I don't know...

Day 4: Today I'm well and truly pleased with myself *insert cheesy grin here*

Today I'm happy to announce that I was not defeated my this monster called greed! I was David and my epic gluttony is Goliath and I slayed him dammit! Slayed him I tell you!! A little dramatic? Oh... :


So, today I managed to dodge pigging out on the devilish custard creams - I picked up 5 custard creams amounting at a whopping 320 cals! :o What I bloody waste of calories. I took one bite in one of them and then binned the other 4 1/2! Yay me. Two days ago, I would have pigged out and then feel guily after.

Why am I letting food control me? This is stupid! I control what goes in my gut dammit! *now breathe*

Anyway, for breakfast I had a chicken sandwich (ie, real chicken and wholemeal bread). Chicken breast was cooked from the night before, I had it with avocado and tomato! Yummy!

This is my breakdown for today:

Not too bad! I want to keep it at the minimum though, so next time I'll aim for 1200 cals. But I'm really happy with myself. When I don't do so great, I'm down on myself, it's only fair that when I'm doing good - I recognise that as well.

The funny thing is, before I would have a 'celebratory treat' - but the feeling of achieving my dietary goals is enough for me. :)

Also, I added my own recipe on SparkPeople today and this is what my lunch and dinner looked like:

For clarity of serving size/portion: This is a 'salad (small) plate' with a diameter of 18cm.

So yeah, I'm a very happy bunny today! Check in tomorrow. Toodles!

Day 3: Hmmmmm

Re yesterday:

So after my great start yesterday morning, I was pumped with motivation and determination but after not having lunch, come 3pm I was so hungry. All my good efforts in the morning was scrapped, who told me to go grocery shopping on an empty stomach?

I picked up the most ridiculous shit that shouldn't even be labelled as food. I pigged out. But today is another day. I would say my diet today has been about 70% good.

My chicken breast is just in the oven cooking as we I speak type (no oil added may I add) :D

Anywhoo, assignment time! Toodles.