Day 21: I have this cloud of sadness over me that I can't seem to shift.

After being on the depo-shot for three months, I've gained 1 stone (14 lbs). I'm not at my highest weight ever at 226lbs. I'm so sick of this.

Then I found out my ex might have a new girlfriend (and I've seen the girl) and she's thin it just makes me want to berate myself even more.

We've been separated now for almost 4 yrs and I thought I was well and truly over him but I don't know if this means I'm not or I just feel this way because deep down I feel as if no one wants me as I'm so fat.

I don't know...