So This Is My First Post.....

Thanks for visiting my blog. I’ll introduce myself…
My name is ‘Tre or Tremaine’ and I’m overweight, considerably overweight in my opinion. I currently weigh 216.7 lbs but my highest weight is 224lbs (16 stones). As I write ’16 stones’ I find myself shaking my head.

How did I let myself get this big? So big to the point at age 24 I’m feeling aches and pains all over my body, so big that sometimes I don’t have my periods – you might think that’s too much information but I need to get it all out. So big that I get panic attacks of the thought of meeting new people. So big that I’m constantly thinking ”.. I don’t want to be scared or I might have a heart attack..”. I’m too young for this and more importantly – I’m too wise for this.



I’ve been this fat for so long, too long. I know what to do and what to eat but for some reason I just feel as if I can’t control what I’m eating. How dumb is that?! Hello! The food didn’t suddenly come alive and put a gun to my head on what I should or shouldn’t eat. I need to nip this in the bud.
I'm not healthy at this weight at all... I know you have women weighing 200lbs and healthy... heck, I have some in my family but I'm not one of them. I know women who weigh more than me still having their periods but I don't. The funny thing is I've yo-yoed so many times I now know my weight at which my periods stops - it's between 211 - 214. My periods are perfectly fine under that. But I don't want to be on the borderline of health. I just want to be healthy and look fly while doing it.
I keep saying this, then I start a new blog, then I delete that blog, then I start a new ‘diet’ then I fall off. Then I weigh myself everyday and if I ever put on 0.00000001 lb I feel like I’m about to have a nervous breakdown. This is ridiculous!
If I do lose, then I think ” ..ok then, I can have this then..”, then that little ‘treat’ turns into a big ol family sized crap food fest for just one.
I know what my problems are – so now is the time! Now I’m serious, I’ve said this atleast 20 times but I saw a picture of myself today…

By the way, my 3 1/2 year old daughter was playing with my camera behind me and must have snapped this – I’m so glad she did.
So what am I gonna do different I hear you ask – my answer is simply do it right.
Oh, by the way - on a good day I scrub up well! :p

hehe...

So I'm starting over:
As a baby I was born normal weight 7lbs supm
As a child I was a 'normal' size:

Normal sized teen (though I thought it was impossible for anyone to weigh more than me at that time - smdh)

And by calculation from when I first weighed myself at 147lbs (10st 7lbs) to now 217 lbs (15st 5lbs) I've gained 0.5lbs every month.
You see that right there - it sneaked up on me so slowly that I didn't even realised. It came on so slowly that my clothes still fit. And the thing is those were the days I would have two double whoppers in less than half hour! (Damn you buy one get one frees!).
Now I don't even eat a quarter of that junk and I gain weight - damn you age! lol
Anyway.. stay tuned if you don't mind my rants! xxx