Beautiful Randomness…

Hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend; my weekend has been jolly good so far – thanks for asking by the way  .

So today I took the kiddies to the park for a picnic, then they went off playing while I designed a few earring pieces. It was such a beautiful thing; just my sketch pad and I in an open gigantic empty park just appreciating this place called Earth.

Ringlets + Egytian Eye of Horus...

So after spending almost four hours in the park I took a 10 minute stroll to my humble abode to find a cat who is obsessed with me!

KittyKatty - I'll name him/her 'T'

This is the fourth time I’ve found this cat just sitting on my doorstep! The first time I saw him/her – I opened my door to get out and he was trying to force his way in! By the way, I don’t know the sex of the cat but it’s easier to write just one sex as oppose to him/her. Now that that’s out the way….

Anyway, this time I was a bit torn whether to feed him or not but he seemed really hungry. I didn’t want to encourage him to keep coming back but I didn’t want him to just be dying of hunger. A bit dramatic but I love animals and just could resist giving him some tuna:

'T' eating tuna..

Anyway guys, that’s it for today episode of ‘Beautiful Randomness’ – Enjoy the rest of your weekend. Be great – Tre.

So I went shopping today...

I'm really excited and I'm getting really prepared for this lifelong commitment to a healthier lifestyle. I got all my fruits and veggies for about a week's consumption (but I loveee fruits so it probably wont last as long). I got nine 2 litre bottles of water, my soya milk ( as I don't drink cow's milk), and much more healthier foods.

My fruit haul looks a little like this:

It's a good look right?

Anywhoo, I hope you are guys are doing good and sticking to your plans but if you fall off,  you can get back on it the next minute; we/you don't have to wait until the next day, week, month or that next big event. Get it going now! 

Let me elaborate on what I plan to do....

Exercise:

So, I will no longer go to the gym as I'm starting college again in September with two kids and don't have dedicated childcare so I will just do things at home (which I know can work as I've lost 20lbs before this way).

I have a garden which I skip in; I have a small park directly in front of my house with a hilly bit that I could use for incline. I live in a nice neighbourhood with two large parks close by (fully decked out with tennis courts basketball courts). One is about 4 times a football pitch size and the other is about 8 times that! So there you have it - no excuses.

I've used 'Davina DVD's' before and they really helped as well but I've purchase three now and they are all scratched so I won't waste my money anymore, I'll just use my trusty old YouTube.

Diet:

I'm a member of 'SparkPeople' and I use their 'food tracker' to track my calories, protein, fat, carbs etc in my food.

This will be my 'diet allowance':

I'll take one day at a time - this is serious and I'm gonna do this!

So This Is My First Post.....

Thanks for visiting my blog. I’ll introduce myself…
My name is ‘Tre or Tremaine’ and I’m overweight, considerably overweight in my opinion. I currently weigh 216.7 lbs but my highest weight is 224lbs (16 stones). As I write ’16 stones’ I find myself shaking my head.

How did I let myself get this big? So big to the point at age 24 I’m feeling aches and pains all over my body, so big that sometimes I don’t have my periods – you might think that’s too much information but I need to get it all out. So big that I get panic attacks of the thought of meeting new people. So big that I’m constantly thinking ”.. I don’t want to be scared or I might have a heart attack..”. I’m too young for this and more importantly – I’m too wise for this.



I’ve been this fat for so long, too long. I know what to do and what to eat but for some reason I just feel as if I can’t control what I’m eating. How dumb is that?! Hello! The food didn’t suddenly come alive and put a gun to my head on what I should or shouldn’t eat. I need to nip this in the bud.
I'm not healthy at this weight at all... I know you have women weighing 200lbs and healthy... heck, I have some in my family but I'm not one of them. I know women who weigh more than me still having their periods but I don't. The funny thing is I've yo-yoed so many times I now know my weight at which my periods stops - it's between 211 - 214. My periods are perfectly fine under that. But I don't want to be on the borderline of health. I just want to be healthy and look fly while doing it.
I keep saying this, then I start a new blog, then I delete that blog, then I start a new ‘diet’ then I fall off. Then I weigh myself everyday and if I ever put on 0.00000001 lb I feel like I’m about to have a nervous breakdown. This is ridiculous!
If I do lose, then I think ” ..ok then, I can have this then..”, then that little ‘treat’ turns into a big ol family sized crap food fest for just one.
I know what my problems are – so now is the time! Now I’m serious, I’ve said this atleast 20 times but I saw a picture of myself today…

By the way, my 3 1/2 year old daughter was playing with my camera behind me and must have snapped this – I’m so glad she did.
So what am I gonna do different I hear you ask – my answer is simply do it right.
Oh, by the way - on a good day I scrub up well! :p

hehe...

So I'm starting over:
As a baby I was born normal weight 7lbs supm
As a child I was a 'normal' size:

Normal sized teen (though I thought it was impossible for anyone to weigh more than me at that time - smdh)

And by calculation from when I first weighed myself at 147lbs (10st 7lbs) to now 217 lbs (15st 5lbs) I've gained 0.5lbs every month.
You see that right there - it sneaked up on me so slowly that I didn't even realised. It came on so slowly that my clothes still fit. And the thing is those were the days I would have two double whoppers in less than half hour! (Damn you buy one get one frees!).
Now I don't even eat a quarter of that junk and I gain weight - damn you age! lol
Anyway.. stay tuned if you don't mind my rants! xxx