Sunday, 7 November 2010

Yesterday was horrible...


My dedication level last week was 'satisfactory' but yesterday it was straight binging. I didn't have anything to eat until 11:30 am and that was a Big mac meal; then I took the kids cinema and had toffee popcorn, and I came home about 3pm and had mash potatoes with sardine and cheese (mad yucky combination but it's really nice).

Around 8pm, I had another portion of mash and sardine and cheese, fast forward to midnight I couldn't sleep so I thought lemme come downstairs and do some laundry but I ended up not doing the laundry but watching CSI and eating the final portion of mash and sardines at about 1:00am. 

Terrible right?



This morning though, I'm back being good. For breakfast, I had steam veg and a 1/4 of chicken breast and I only used about 1/4 teaspoon of olive oil to make it. It sounds like dinner doesn't? But the important bit is that it was a healthy breakfast. High in fibre, low in carbs, good enough protein, low in fat but just the right amount 'good fat', low in sodium = all good.

I think I'm back on track now. :)

Friday, 5 November 2010

What is my problem and why can't I stick to a regime?

The word 'regime' sounds so strict doesn't it? Could that be the problem?

I know what my problems are though and they affect not just my weight loss but every crook and cranny of my life. I'm a perpetual procrastinator and daydreamer.

Thinking back to when I was a child/teen I can now see what were early signs are now major problems. For example, you know when you start a brand new term in school (say September) I would say '' I'm gonna write my notes really neat '' or '' I'm going to do so and so '' and within a day or two that just goes out the window. I never stick to anything or I'll put it off until the very last minute.

I went Jamaica in May and I was still packing even when the cab came! The other day I had 6 assignments for college and on my way to one of the exams I snuck in just 6 minutes of revision before the exam and that was the only time I revised in the two weeks notice we received that we had an exam coming up. I managed to pass though but that is besides the point - this aspect of my personality can kill me. Obesity is no joke.

Now on researching ways to drop this 'habit' or 'personality trait' I came across this article

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How to Stop Your Procrastination Now

  1. Procrastination is the great killer of our goals and aspirations. We always get caught in the cycle of hopeful enthusiasm, then second guessing, and finally resignation. The first step in stopping your procrastination now is MAKING A CLEAR DECISION OF WHAT YOU WANT. Do you want to be a writer? Do you want to do better in school? Make a clear decision what you want first and foremost.
  2. The second step in stopping your procrastination now is LESSENING YOUR MOODINESS. For example, if you want to quit smoking, you are going to have to go through withdrawal sysmptoms before you stop having the craving. Sometimes you have to be strictly logical with yourself about your strengths and weaknesses in your life in order to make the desired changes.
  3. The third step in stopping your procrastination now is to STOP DAYDREAMING. Daydreaming is great in the beginning because it'll let you know that you are not living the full life you are entitled to; after that, it becomes a hindrance as you get caught in your fantasies. Start doing and stop thinking about doing. I hope this has been a helpful article on how to stop procrastinating. Good luck! [Source]

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Number 3 suits me to the T! My heart actually sank when I read that bit; I'm such a daydreamer and I've been doing it since I was 12/13. I remember all my fantasies from they started to this day. I can't be without music as that is when I live in my own world. 

My virtual 'world' is also a hindrance, I live online and in my thoughts and while I live in a virtual reality my true reality is sliding pass.

Oh, did I also tell you guys that I'm a recluse? :( Oh boy, anyway I'm signing off for now. I'll continue another time.



“Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be” -  George Sheehan

My stats in pics..

So I thought I would take the official initial snap shots so I can track my progress even better.

43 inch waist
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216lbs