Ever since I weighed myself 2 years ago clocking 16st (224 lbs) I was so shocked at how much I weighed I became obsessed. At my worst I would weigh myself 15 - 20 times per day everyday! If I 'relieved' myself, I would instantly weigh myself after. I eventually got my 'weighing obsession' down to 2 - 4 times per week.
What I find is sometimes I'm sticking to my diet and exercise, but I still feel fat so I quickly get on the scale only to find out that (despite how 'fat' I feel) I've actually lost weight; but then what do I do? Eat to celebrate or eat because I'm thinking I'm doing so good it won't matter, but then I'm unable to get out of that celebratory binge.
On the flip side, when I feel as sexy as shite
and I'm thinking "oooh, I must have lost atleast 2lbs" only to jump on the scale and see that I've actually gained 2lbs, then instantly becoming depressed which leads to self deprecation which only makes me think eff it - I'll eat which consequently brings me back to square one! Phewww I'm so tired of that bullshite!So yesterday I took some pics feeling sexy and stuff thinking I've lost weight, got on scales and saw that I gained - I was done. Sigh. Pics below:
Taken in November 2010:
April 2011 below:
I won't weigh myself again until June (may the Heavens be with me) but I'll continue to be a good girl. LOL.
